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写真のにおい/ smells in photos

I was 19 then. I was in Kolkata, India. I stayed there for two weeks working at a place that belongs to Mather Theresa. The scenes I saw there were strong and brand-new and maybe without that two weeks in Kolkata, I wouldn't be living in Burkina Faso today.
In Japanese, my everyday life is often described as "Kokusai Kyouryoku," which means something like "International Cooperations." To me, the word is too big for describing one person's life and I don't use the word to introduce my life. Humans drew lines on a map and decided that the world consists of many "countries." If I go beyond the line and live with the people there, I'm "internationally cooperating." I find the word too much.
In India, I took some photos. I sensed some strong incongruity between the actual scenes I lived in and what I saw in the photos. My photos lacked a smell. They lacked the particular smells of each location. I felt artificialities in my photos.
It was last week when I was given a magazine with some title like "Japanese people doing Kokusai Kyouryoku in the world." There were many photos of many countries. None of them had a smell. Maybe each person really does live in each location. But because the magazine looked like to be a full of fictions, it made me feel like even those "Japanese people" are some shady characters. 
I wonder if my photos now have come to contain some smells. I don't want to be "a fine Japanese youth who cooperates internationally in Burkina Faso." To begin with, what's the matter of me living in wherever? Me, living in Burkina Faso doesn't have any meanings. Or it means something only to me and the people here, but not to an outsider.
I'm often asked if there are any difficulties I am dealing with because I don't live in Japan. I don't look at my everyday life from such an angle. What I do doesn't change by places. I meet people, get to know the lands, look for jobs, learn, and live. I don't want to categorize and analyze (or criticize) my life, the people around, or the lands as if I am not involved. 
I think life is much more simpler than that. We can live simply as we don't need to think when we dance in an improvised music. We can just accept how it is and it's okay that we can't understand. What is needed is not understanding but accepting. Person's nationality or a name of country where I live in aren't the first thing I think about because I know I'm just me no matter where I am or who I'm with.
Photos are taken by me mainly in Diebougou, Burkina Faso.